2013: The Year of Change

This year...wow. My life is completely changing this year. All for the better, but even good change, is still change. And change is HARD. I'll be gaining a husband and giving birth to our first child all within a few months. I made the decision to leave my job of almost three years. I'm going back to school to better myself, for my child. I'm moving out of my apartment in June, and moving back into my parent's home, with my new husband. With all this change, I can't help but recognize how immensely, richly, abundantly blessed I am. God has always been good to me, but especially this last year. Starting with my love, my other half, my husband to be, my everything: Taylor Scott Eldredge. He is the physical manifestation of an answered prayer. Never, ever, before have I felt more loved and safe. When he looks at me, I can see his love for me reflected in his eyes, in the softness of the smile he gets when we make eye contact. Love radiates from him, and that love has changed my life completely for the better. This is a love that I didn't know existed, but I sure hoped it did. We're best friends, we're lovers, we're made for each other. It's fun, it's playful, it's meaningful, but most of all, it's real. And it's mine. And this love has given me the greatest gift. Ever since I was little, little I've always known I wanted to be a mom and a wife. When I was 2 years old, I was going around a family reunion/party asking my other little cousins who they were going to marry when they grew up. It's always been an inate part of my identity. And now my dreams are coming true. It wasn't necessarily in the timing I had always hoped for, after all, we "had a plan". But life doesn't always cooperate, and now we're counting down the days until our little boy or little girl arrives in November. What a HUGE blessing. I really don't know what I've done to deserve this happiness in my life, but I will thank God with every breath for blessing me so profoundly.